I feel like I am a coward and mental because I take pain medications.
I especially feel this way when I talk to people about my pain and they quickly reply by saying "my sister (or someone they know) had back pain and her doctor put her on alot of pain medications like you and she ended up getting addicted to it. We pushed her to see a different doctor and that new doctor got her off all the pain medications. Ever since she got off from all her pain medications she is so much better. If she can do it I sure know you can. You should really think about getting off from them."
First off, back pain is nothing compared to RSD/CRPS pain.
Secondly, our society is using the word addiction wrong! I take pain medications on a daily bases, but I am not addicted. I am dependent. My friend would say, "yes you are." I reply back, "No I am not." I got into explaining why.
Addiction is when you take way more then prescribed. You go to different doctors to get more pills. You buy off the streets. You do whatever you have to do get that medication.
Most people who take it and take it right is Dependent. I am depended on it. If I go off from it I will have withdrawal. After so many years I may have to increase the dosage, but not because I crave it but because my body gets use to that dosage.
I am not even close to being addicted because I take less then what I am prescribed. I hate the feeling of pain medications. I don't know why the hell people what to take this stuff and especially at a huge dose.
Another thing back pain, RA, even cancer pain is nothing compared to RSD/CRPS. You can sit there and argue with me, but studies have proved that.
http://www.rsdhope.org/mcgill-pain-index---where-is-crps-pain-ranked.html
I especially feel this way when I talk to people about my pain and they quickly reply by saying "my sister (or someone they know) had back pain and her doctor put her on alot of pain medications like you and she ended up getting addicted to it. We pushed her to see a different doctor and that new doctor got her off all the pain medications. Ever since she got off from all her pain medications she is so much better. If she can do it I sure know you can. You should really think about getting off from them."
First off, back pain is nothing compared to RSD/CRPS pain.
Secondly, our society is using the word addiction wrong! I take pain medications on a daily bases, but I am not addicted. I am dependent. My friend would say, "yes you are." I reply back, "No I am not." I got into explaining why.
Addiction is when you take way more then prescribed. You go to different doctors to get more pills. You buy off the streets. You do whatever you have to do get that medication.
Most people who take it and take it right is Dependent. I am depended on it. If I go off from it I will have withdrawal. After so many years I may have to increase the dosage, but not because I crave it but because my body gets use to that dosage.
I am not even close to being addicted because I take less then what I am prescribed. I hate the feeling of pain medications. I don't know why the hell people what to take this stuff and especially at a huge dose.
Another thing back pain, RA, even cancer pain is nothing compared to RSD/CRPS. You can sit there and argue with me, but studies have proved that.
http://www.rsdhope.org/mcgill-pain-index---where-is-crps-pain-ranked.html
This second graph came out of the Int J Womens Health (2010)'s article Advances in labor analgesia
vAffiliation: Department of Anesthesiology, Northwestern University Feinberg School of Medicine, Chicago, IL, USA.
http://openi.nlm.nih.gov/detailedresult.php?img=2971706_ijwh-1-139f1&req=4
vAffiliation: Department of Anesthesiology, Northwestern University Feinberg School of Medicine, Chicago, IL, USA.
http://openi.nlm.nih.gov/detailedresult.php?img=2971706_ijwh-1-139f1&req=4
So as you can see RSD/CRPS is off the scale. I wish I could say it is around the toothache or even cancer pain, but sadly it isn't. That is why we need to get a cure or just some awareness.
I am so tired of people looking at me like I am making up my pain to get pain medications.
If you look at me you would have no clue I am dealing with burning pain and knifes being stabbed all over my body.
I already feel like I am a loser of a person inside because I am 29 years old and have to take all this medication. I take more medications then my grandmother. I also have to have my mom drive me to places sometimes. I have to live with my parents because of all my medical expenses and student loans. I have been able to work because I can't work and do school all at the same time. But how dare you tell me that if my sister with back pain can go off from all pain medications why can't you?.
Everyone deals with pain differently. I am a stubborn person who tries very hard to not let the pain take over my life and dreams. I may not be able to load my day like most others and like I use to but I still will fill my schedule up as much as I can handle. I am still going to work towards my goals of working in the creative industry of film and theatre. I may have to do it different then most, but I still going to do it. I know this will be hard because I am competing against healthy people, but the one thing they don't bring to the table is life, determination and perseverance.
I am so tired of people looking at me like I am making up my pain to get pain medications.
If you look at me you would have no clue I am dealing with burning pain and knifes being stabbed all over my body.
I already feel like I am a loser of a person inside because I am 29 years old and have to take all this medication. I take more medications then my grandmother. I also have to have my mom drive me to places sometimes. I have to live with my parents because of all my medical expenses and student loans. I have been able to work because I can't work and do school all at the same time. But how dare you tell me that if my sister with back pain can go off from all pain medications why can't you?.
Everyone deals with pain differently. I am a stubborn person who tries very hard to not let the pain take over my life and dreams. I may not be able to load my day like most others and like I use to but I still will fill my schedule up as much as I can handle. I am still going to work towards my goals of working in the creative industry of film and theatre. I may have to do it different then most, but I still going to do it. I know this will be hard because I am competing against healthy people, but the one thing they don't bring to the table is life, determination and perseverance.